Close the door and drift away
Into a sea of uncertainty
Where all your hopes and dreams
Have faded out of reach.
Remember all the bad dreams
Are not far from reality
Would you write again for me?
Will you write again for me?
And who bade you stop this living art?
Have you forgotten just what you are?
If you don't want to then you could at least pretend
That the paper's your soul and your blood's in the pen
And maybe then you'd see the light
And read the truth that you had to write.
Would you smile again for me?
And just how long did it take for you to understand
Where your feelings stopped and writing began
And if it makes you sad
To give up dreams you've always had
That can't be caught
It just can't be fought.
Looking back at '91
Reflecting on those things we could have
Said and done
The dancing lights across a crowd
Remind us of another town
That's dead and gone
It's just dead and gone
Take me to that summer past
And tell me is it really worth remembering?
I realize that music then
Was really just a song in my head
And though the fun has past
Those mythic dreams would never last
Well I know how the best will fall
And the rest will follow.
Is it so easy to resign
To ruin this world for everyone?
I guess when it's all said and done
It's just something in our design.
Have you ever stopped to wonder
Why they forced your voice to turn
From silence to a caterwaul?
All those clowns, what can they know?
Let everyone else go.
Let it dive, let it die, let it fade out of sight
Let it drag us down, let it fade
Grieve, but not grieve together
Mourn with nothing to say
Gone are those times forever
Lost as those sweet warm other days
Where we born to despair
Deeds done but not forgiven?
There will always be something there
As long as one of us goes on living
Grinning from a mask of hollowed bone
Where a human is somewhere to be found
But where I don't know
And things couldn't be better
This is one fine life
This is one fine wine
This is one fine wife
This is one fine lie
And things couldn't be better
They are the best
She runs through the night as if nobody cares
She screams and she cries and ignores all the stares
She wants me to come, but i'm never going there
I whisper in your ear
so loudly why can't you hear it
All my faith is gone
you think I couldn't find it
Pieces falling down
shattered, nothing behind it
In my mind alone,
Lost here I'm separated
Crawl deeper in my hole
safe here from what I hated
All your artificial words won't heal me
what I hold inside all the things that I live with
I can't easily hide
And I'm left here with nothing,
nothing to live for
It's not easy to hide
all this damage inside
I can't seem to erase all the scares I have lived with
Soon I'll disappear without a fucking trace
Faces I've seen turn old and grey
I lost too many friends along the way
Memories I never thought would fade
They fade and blow away
I wish that I could disappear
Unzip my skin and leave it here
So I could be no one again
And never let nobody in
such is life
so sad but true
i don''t see the point in
going any further
than we''ve gone already
I can't believe all the travesty
Surrounding me, I, I want to flee
I want to flee from everything
Keep it all down, bottled inside
It breaks me to torment again and
Torture me like it used to
Could it be that I never had the chance to grow inside?
Could it be that my habit is to find a place to hide?
could it be that sometimes I say things just to disagree?
Could it be that I'm only being me?
You don't know me because I don't care.
But I'm still here,
Patiently waiting for you to disappear.
it's always raining in my head
Forget all the thing i should have said
You in your shell are you waiting for someone to rescue you from yourself?
Don't be disappointed when no one comes.
I already told you, that falling is easy its getting back up that becomes the problem, becomes the
problem and if you don't believe that you can find a way out you become the problem, become the problem.
You, all alone, are you waiting for someone to make you whole? Can't you see aren't you tired of this dysfunctional routine.
What's happend to you?
It's obvious you've changed
Something deep inside you is probably to blame
How does it feel when your feet finally hit the ground?
When all of your bridges aren't around
And the sandcastles you build are falling down
To my mother, to my father
It's your son or it's your daughter
Are my screams loud enough for you to hear me?
Should I turn it up for you?
I sit here locked inside my head
remembering everything you've said
This silence gets us nowhere!
Gets us nowhere way too fast!
The silence is what kills me
I need someone here to help me
But you don't know how to listen
And let me make my decisions
I know that everything can change
What I need is to open up again
So never again will I look back in vain
Cause today's not the past
I don't need to relive it
Are you satisfied?
I've given all I can
And are you pacified
Or do you want more from me?
I've learned that this life's not just a game
Just a line between the pleasures and the pain
It's been a while
Since I could...Hold my head up high
Since I could stand on my own two feet again
Since I could say that I wasn't addicted
Since I could say I loved myself as well and...
Everytime I feel this I just lose control
I'm water while you drown
now you are sitting in the hole that you
dug around yourself.
can''t see thru the rain
too much pain
am i insane
too much time
loss of energy
lost in nievate
Who the fuck did you want me to be?
Was there something I couldn't see?
I just need this to be all right
I can't feel this another night
Fail to see
How destructive we can be
Taking without giving back
'Till the damage can be seen
Can you see?
The walls you build around yourself
I guess they also keep you here
I'm so afraid of waking
Please don't shake me
Disarm you with a smile
And cut you like you want me to
Cut that little child
Inside of me and such a part of you
Ooh, the years burn
Disarm you with a smile
And leave you like they left me here
To wither in denial
The bitterness of one who's left alone
Ooh, the years burn
say goodbye on a night like this
if it's the last thing we ever do
you never looked as lost as this
sometimes it doesn't even look like you
it goes dark
it goes darker still
but i watch you like i'm made of stone
as you walk away
tired of dreaming
Now I have managed to be the one
To be the victim without the gun
Escape reality with new pain
Then let the cycle start again
It happened all so fast, my only question's how
I'll feel no pain
I won't have a brain
They'll take away the part that hurts
and let the rest remain
Fix my head
Fix me please, I don't wanna be dead
No more maybes
I'll pay for sanity
But sanity don't come cheap
laying lost and wounded
just myself to blame
have no life and
being hand-fed pain
head's a crying wasteland
filled with shame
cried for help before and
Make a joke and i will sigh
And you will laugh and I will cry
Happiness, I cannot feel
I'd love to be, it's so unreal
When your world's not feeling ugly
And the world's not too much
Take the world upon your shoulders
Help, I have done it again
I have been here many times before
Hurt myself again today
And, the worst part is there's no-one else to blame
Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
I am small
Warm me up
And breathe me
Ouch I have lost myself again
Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found,
Yeah I think that I might break
I've lost myself again and I feel unsafe
I'm standing on the edge of your words
That is where you'll find me
I'm paralysed by all the things that hurt
But I'm coming
We've been to the top, we've been to the bottom
We've known everything and forgotten
I'm going down, I don't want to change
I'm going down, going down the drain
There is usually one thing that keeps
Us off track
It is fear
Judge me feel free
Cos the freer you feel
The freer you'll let me be
It has to end to begin
You don't know me
You can't hold me
I'll slip through your hands
I am one single grain of sand
Throw away yesterday
We've all lied
I will always have a smile for you
Careful what you say
I've lowered all my armour
Risking the pain again
Don't ask me why I smoke
I don't know
But I drink to get drunk
I saw you cry today
The pain may fill you
I saw you shy away
The pain will not kill you
I'm in the wars
Can't speak for crying
Close all the doors
Since I am dying
So when you're finished with this dream
Delete begin to rewrite me
For those in need
For those who speed
For those who try to slow their minds with weed
Yeah, it will be ok
Do nothing today
Give yourself a break
Let your imagination run away
So don't treat me bad just be glad I am strong
I know where I belong
And soon you will see we are blessed and complete
What you been doing
Still make the world a better place
Never stopped rueing
Making those tears fall down your face
Making you suffer
Wondering how you got your scars
And only in hindsight
I wish I had taken you in my arms
So I'm going to eat one hundred sweets
I don't care if I get fat
And I'm going to speak one I won't censor me
I know I can take nothing back
It costs nothing but change
do as I say and not as I do
Mind you mind me
You thought you could climb me
I'm sorry to cut your rope
But in you I've lost all hope
Friends like you I can do without.
Even though I might,
Even though I try,
Limb by limb and tooth by tooth
Tearing up inside of me
Every day every hour
I wish that I was bullet proof
Heat the pins and stab them in
You have turned me into this
Just wish that it was bullet proof
So pay the money and take a shot
Leadfill the hole in me
I could burst a million bubbles
All surrogate and bullet proof
And bullet proof
And bullet proof
And when I'm like this
How can you be smiling, singing?
How can you be sure?
you do it to yourself, you do, and that´s what really hurts
you do it to yourself, just you, you and no-one else
you do it to yourself
I want to breathe, I want to grow
I say I want it but I don't know how
I look, I bleed, I beg and pray
[They] Send you roses when they think you need to smile.
So give them blood, blood, gallons of the stuff!
Give them all that they can drink and it will never be enough.
So give them blood, blood, blood.
Grab a glass because there's going to be a blood!
it's really quite alarming cause I'm such an awful fuck. (Oh thank you!)
I said, we'll drown ourselves in misery tonight
I lied, you've worn out all your dancing shoes this time
These eyes have had too much to drink again tonight
Black skies, we'll douse ourselves in high explosive light
And if your heart stops beating
I'll be there wondering
Did you get what you deserve?
The ending of your life won't wait
Then your heart can't take this hell
And wouldn't it be great if
We were dead
Well after all, we'll lie another day
And did you come to stare, or wash away the blood?
It was a lie when they smiled
And said, "you won't feel a thing"
Lets say goodbye, the hundredth time
And then tomorrow we'll do it again
And our memories defeat us,
And I'll end this direst.
A life that´s so demanding
I get so weak
can't begin to let you know just what I'm feeling
And now the red ones make me fly
And the blue ones help me fall
And I think I'll blow my brains against the ceiling
What will it take to show you that it's not the life it seems?
I'm not okay (I promise)
For what you did to me,
and what I'll do to you,
you get, what everyone else gets,
you get a lifetime
This hole that you put me in
wasn't deep enough
when you go
just know that I will remember you
I lost my fear of falling
Stop asking me questions
I´d hate to see you cry
So give me all your poison
And give me all your pills
And give me all your hopeless hearts
And make me ill
If this is what you want
Then fire at will
Give me a reason to believe
You might wake up and notice you’re someone you're not,
Here's my resignation
If it looks like I’m laughing I’m really just asking to leave
You wanna see how far down
I can sink?
Let me go!
So say goodbye) to the vows you take
(And say goodbye) to the life you make
(And say goodbye) to the heart you break
And all the cyanide you drank.
It's the terror of knowing
What this world is about
Watching some good friends
Scream "Let me out!"
Pray tomorrow takes me higher
under pressure we're cracking